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An Interview With Robin
(A school assignment she did @ age 13)
Robin Cindy Hamilton, currently a grade nine student in the Nellie McLung junior high all girls program at Oliver school. She has agreed to take time from her busy schedule to talk a bit about herself. “The first thing I remember would be Disneyland. I went there when I was four with my mother, father, brother (Sterling) & my sister (Sharie). I only remember a few things. I remember the log ride, pirates of the Caribbean, but most of all, I remember the Alice in wonderland ride. I remember the Cheshire cat grinning insanely, the queen of hearts’ booming voice, echoing through the long, dark corridor, & riding in the caterpillar.”
Robin has two sisters, Sharie (18), & Kristen (7). She also has one brother, Sterling (16). She lives with her mom, sister & brother on the northeast side. Her mom was married once before, & Sharie & Sterling are from her first marriage, Kristen & Robin are from her second. Her mother & father divorced when she was in grade 5. Her father works in the states (but he still lives in an apartment right by where she lives with her mom), so she sees him every other weekend, as well as on Tuesdays & Thursday when he’s in town. Her dad has a girlfriend named Sandy. Sandy has two children too. Their names are Kara (19), & Steven (13).
Robin has blond hair, blue-green eyes, wears glasses, & is about 5 feet tall. She weighs 86 lbs. Some of her hobbies are singing, dancing & drawing. She was a cheerleader in grade seven, and her team placed second in the Redman competition. Her ambition in life is to go to Marvel College to become an esthetician. She wants to make an impact on the earth. She wants to be remembered 10 years from now. She doesn’t want people to look at her face in the yearbook and think, “who the heck is that? What?! She was in my class? Since when?” she doesn’t want to be remembered as being pretty, popular, smart, funny, witty or even cool. She wants people to remember her as someone who changed their lives in a special little way.
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Robin's Plea (to a suicidal friend)
If you ever left me, I’d miss you TOO much
I don’t know how I’d live!
You’re only 14
With your head full of dreams…
And the world has so much to give
Friend,
Life is so short and even though you’ve seen
More than some people could ever handle,
You haven’t truly lived yet.
If you die, there’s so much you won’t ever
have the chance to do.
Before you die, I want you to
Kneel down and touch the grass
When it’s still wet with morning dew
And ask yourself
“how can something so small be so beautiful?”
and think about a world without grass.
Look at a butterfly and wonder
“How can such an amazing creature come from
such a simple caterpillar?”
Imagine a world without butterflies.
Grow a garden and sit in it and ask
“How can it be possible that a tiny seed
could grow into a soft flower?”
Imagine a world without flowers.
I want you to swing and feel free for once
Forget life! Forget worries! Don’t care if people stare!
Look at the sky through simple, innocent, child-like eyes
Imagine a world without a sky!
I want you to cry one day – tears of joy
And love yourself and ask yourself
“How would I deal if the world stopped?”
and imagine a world without joy.
I want you to hear the wails of your new baby –
Your first-born child and love them
And know they’ll love you and they’ll belong to you
And imagine life without them and ask yourself
“how could I live without them?”
Love yourself and know you are loved
And you are beautiful! and you’re amazing!
And imagine a world without you…
That’s how my life would be –
I wouldn’t see grass, I wouldn’t hope to see butterflies.
I wouldn’t smell flowers, there would be no sun, no sky.
Tears would be life
And love would cease.
Robin Hamilton (Copyright 2001)
14 years old
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The Harmless Teen Dieting Bug
The Harmless Teen Dieting Bug
By
Robin Hamilton (Copyright 2000)
This whole thing started out last year,
When the cheerleading tryouts rolled `round,
And The thought of my own set of pom poms,
Had me floating five feet off the ground.
But I noticed for once in my lifetime,
That my Levi’s were getting quite snug,
And That’s when I think that it hit me,
The “harmless teen-dieting bug”.
I knew if I lost a few inches,
I’d be popular, envied, & cool,
So I started to cut back on pizza,
As the people took notice at school.
By the end of the month it was worth it,
And I flew through the tryouts with ease,
And I loved how the uniform fit me,
How the miniskirt blew in the breeze.
I figured if 10 pounds was this good,
20 would be twice as great,
And The sooner I lost it the better,
So I did more to lessen my weight.
And I didn’t just stop eating pizza,
But cheese, milk & meat products too,
And it wasn’t too long ‘til I noticed,
The less I ate, the more I felt I could do.
As my weight dropped from 130 to 80,
And my figure diminished to nil,
A “friend” introduced me to her friend,
The wonderful laxative pill.
So I found a new buddy in weight loss,
Me & ex-lax were partners in crime,
And the pounds falling off me like raindrops,
Made me thinner in half of the time.
Then one day the praise just stopped coming,
And I figured the cause of this stuff,
Was that even though now I was skinny,
I just wasn’t skinny enough.
So instead of my menu of carrots,
Celery and possibly grapes,
I simply reduced it to crackers,
And I waited for change in my weight.
But I didn’t know while this was happening,
While my Levi’s stopped fitting me snug,
That by starving myself I was feeding,
That “HARMLESS TEEN DIETING BUG”.
But the bug had stopped being so harmless,
And it wasn’t a bug anymore,
And it wasn’t a little teen dieting,
But a ravenous creature of war.
And the war wasn’t me against fat cells,
‘Twas the dieting bug against me,
And the whole time I’d thought I was winning,
‘Twas the bug that had had victory.
I had wasted to practically nothing,
And I hadn’t a one thing to show,
ANd I wish someone would have told me,
That my precious obsession would grow.
Then my therapist told me the story,
Of the harmless teen dieting bug.
How it usually preys on young teen girls,
Who’re in desperate need of love.
How it slowly begins the process,
Of making them think they’re too fat,
So they lose weight & gain some self confidence,
But it rarely ever ends with just that.
They get skinny, & happiness finds them,
But their thinking is already twisted,
So they lose more to reach their ideal weight,
But really they’ve already missed it.
And They diet until they’re so skinny,
That their bodies can’t work anymore,
And Then one day they lie down & die,
And The little bug’s won one more war.
And I know that I’m lucky I’ve beat it,
And I know not to do it again,
And Now I’m a healthy 13 year old girl,
Weighing in at one hundred and ten.
So I’ve regained my place on the cheer team,
And My pizza habit’s back in play,
And I love to watch movies & bike ride,
But I’m lucky that I’m here today.
Oh, & I found out one more thing.
That the dieting bug has a name.
And The little bug’s named “anorexia”,
And It’s looking for more lives to claim.
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