Hard. / Kristen Hamilton (Little sister )
I just wrote you a letter and got erased, argh!
Hey girlie, There are no words I can write or words I can say to express how i'm feeling right now. It's so hard now, harder than ever. I miss you like no other, we had a special bond that I could never ever feel with another person. We were closer than sisters, we were kindred spirits as anne of green gables well-put it. I miss you so much Robin. I see the other girls interacting with their sisters and jealousy overcomes me. I feel as if there will never be another person that can fill the gap you left with your departure. I'm almost 16 now, older than you ever were, it's weird! You left me footprints for 6 years, now I have to make my own. We went through so much together, you were my everything. I've had to fill my life with events and people to try and close the over-sized gap that was left, it's still not the same. I struggle with your death every day still, it's very hard for me, being the age now you were. I have had a very rough year. Hardest one yet I do believe. But i've made it through it, with your distant help. I miss you like crazy babe! You once told me that we have 90 years on earth and eternity in heaven and that heaven will always be there, life won't. That sentence never made sense to me until this year, it's been the hardest, the most eventful, and the best year of my life. Although, i have only had 16 of them and i hope to enjoy many MANY more! I hope you're up there dancing and singing with Anita, Grandpa Gus and Robbie. I imagine you're ver happy with the gold filled swimming pools and the unlimited free gumballs out of the free gumball machines :P . I love you Robin, I can't express that enough. And I miss you like crazy!
More than sisters, best of friends, always!!!
Love your little sissy, Keah.
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